NO NEED TO HURRY
I am one of those people who always feels like they are running late, or forgetting to do something. This is my daily way of living, or at least, it was until I found myself at home, every day, alone, doing very little, or even nothing.
I am so much an on-the-go-hurry-up person, that when I allow myself to relax, really give in to relaxing, people who know me, who love me, are afraid something is wrong.
It is rarely contributed to physical health. It is almost always attributed to my mental health. It seems that because I am always SO busy, that when I actually slow down, it takes a few days to recover, and by then, the visit is over or the weekend away is over, and no one sees me when the energy levels out and I'm ready to play.
Over the past three or four weeks, that has ALL changed. Because there is no need to hurry.
No need to hurry.
This is a strange concept for city dwellers, I think.
The last time I got to go camping with my sister was two summers ago. It was the weekend of June 6th, 2018. My brother-in-law was celebrating his 50th birthday. I was quiet, subdued, tired, and when our trip came to an end? So very sad. I kept wishing we had one more day. Just one. I hugged my sister goodbye. I told her she felt like home to me. And I cried. For hours. All the way home.
Campgrounds are closed. County roads are closed. National forest access is closed. And all I can think about is going camping.
I practiced Dolly Parton's "Jolene" on guitar, and although my voice isn't quite back yet, I sang it loud. I texted my sister. I told her that I was learning it for our next camping trip. This summer.
Then I started feeling anxious. I thought of all the things I wanted to accomplish today and felt the need to hurry.
HURRY? To where? For what?
And I stopped. Deep breath. Walk away.
I made some delicious soup. I noticed that I could taste it. Hurray for tastebuds returning to normal! Then I noticed I was eating it fast. "Slow down, Sugar, it's not going anywhere and you don't have a time limit to eat before you miss recess." I enjoyed every sip, slurp and slug of it!
I looked at my floor, scattered with tab sheets and books, the mug of warm soup in my hand, and realized that things are so different, and not only does my attitude needs adjusting, but my habit of hurry does!
I don't want to go back to that lifestyle.
I'm not battling traffic or juggling two or three jobs. I'm not even trying to divide time up with my family right now (oh, but that one definitely hurts). I'm just doing things. Things I love. Playing music. Talking to my sister. Dreaming about camping. Writing. Reading. Having in depth conversations with God. Checking on the next steps in updating my website (I started that yesterday. If you have time, go peek at it. www.cherieelaine.photoreflect.com)
I have spent SO much time in front of the television. I don't even LIKE television! Today, stop it! Read more. :-) Go take a walk and maybe enjoy the snow. I could make a snowman by myself, right? Why not?
There's just no need to hurry.
Let's take a minute today, and just ask ourselves, what one WONDERFUL thing has happened in the midst of the pandemic? Just look for one. And take your time. No need to hurry. But find one wonderful thing.
Love you!
I am so much an on-the-go-hurry-up person, that when I allow myself to relax, really give in to relaxing, people who know me, who love me, are afraid something is wrong.
It is rarely contributed to physical health. It is almost always attributed to my mental health. It seems that because I am always SO busy, that when I actually slow down, it takes a few days to recover, and by then, the visit is over or the weekend away is over, and no one sees me when the energy levels out and I'm ready to play.
Over the past three or four weeks, that has ALL changed. Because there is no need to hurry.
No need to hurry.
This is a strange concept for city dwellers, I think.
The last time I got to go camping with my sister was two summers ago. It was the weekend of June 6th, 2018. My brother-in-law was celebrating his 50th birthday. I was quiet, subdued, tired, and when our trip came to an end? So very sad. I kept wishing we had one more day. Just one. I hugged my sister goodbye. I told her she felt like home to me. And I cried. For hours. All the way home.
Campgrounds are closed. County roads are closed. National forest access is closed. And all I can think about is going camping.
I practiced Dolly Parton's "Jolene" on guitar, and although my voice isn't quite back yet, I sang it loud. I texted my sister. I told her that I was learning it for our next camping trip. This summer.
Then I started feeling anxious. I thought of all the things I wanted to accomplish today and felt the need to hurry.
HURRY? To where? For what?
And I stopped. Deep breath. Walk away.
I made some delicious soup. I noticed that I could taste it. Hurray for tastebuds returning to normal! Then I noticed I was eating it fast. "Slow down, Sugar, it's not going anywhere and you don't have a time limit to eat before you miss recess." I enjoyed every sip, slurp and slug of it!
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| A pretty productive day. :-)
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I don't want to go back to that lifestyle.
I'm not battling traffic or juggling two or three jobs. I'm not even trying to divide time up with my family right now (oh, but that one definitely hurts). I'm just doing things. Things I love. Playing music. Talking to my sister. Dreaming about camping. Writing. Reading. Having in depth conversations with God. Checking on the next steps in updating my website (I started that yesterday. If you have time, go peek at it. www.cherieelaine.photoreflect.com)
I have spent SO much time in front of the television. I don't even LIKE television! Today, stop it! Read more. :-) Go take a walk and maybe enjoy the snow. I could make a snowman by myself, right? Why not?
There's just no need to hurry.
Let's take a minute today, and just ask ourselves, what one WONDERFUL thing has happened in the midst of the pandemic? Just look for one. And take your time. No need to hurry. But find one wonderful thing.
Love you!
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